Happy Birthday to Jess

Despite a rough start on my cake making, Jess' birthday went well this year.  I don't have a whole lot to say, so here are pictures:

Severe Cake Failure
Severe Cake Failure - 11PM The Night Before
But, with 2 pounds of sugar, you can't tell the difference!
But, with 2 pounds of sugar, you can't tell the difference! - Midnight


Corinne was very impressed by the candles


They melted fast!
They melted fast!
Look at that tasty cake!
Look at that tasty cake!
Jess sporting her new sapphire heart necklace.
Jess sporting her new sapphire heart necklace.

My children will not be obedient

My children will not be obedient and I will never teach them to be obedient.  Obedience is to betray your own sense of morality and instead substitute someone else's.

Obedience is to do what you're told regardless of what is right.
Morality is to do what is right regardless of what you're told. --Unknown

I believe we have an obligation to act morally rather than obediently.  This is one of the fundamental issues that puts me at odds with LDS theology.  LDS theology defines morality as obedience.

For example, the Book of Mormon starts out with a story of Nephi being commanded by God to murder and rob a drunk man lying in the street in order to then go to the man's home and steal a book.  The LDS Church teaches that this was a great and noble act of obedience and we should all strive to be as obedient as Nephi.  The lesson is that we all must be willing to commit murder if we believe God is commanding us to do it.

Similarly with the story of Abraham and Isaac.  We are taught that we should be so obedient that we will murder our own children and this is adored as virtuous.

The LDS lessons on obedience range from disturbing, to completely nonsensical, to truly concerning.

One of the more disturbing lessons I've come across was given by Staheli of the Quorum of the 70 in the April 1998 General Conference:

While I have had my share of lessons on obedience during my life, one of the most memorable was taught to me as a young boy by my dog and my mother. When I was about eight years of age, my father brought home a puppy which I promptly named Spot. We became the greatest of pals as I tried to teach him a few tricks and obedience to my commands. He learned well, except he could not conquer an overwhelming desire to chase and bark at cars as they came down the dusty street by our home in our small southern Utah town. As hard as I tried, I could not break Spot of his bad habit. One day a neighbor came speeding by in his large truck. He knew Spot and he knew Spot’s bad habit. This time, just as Spot approached the truck in his usual aggressive manner, this man swerved toward Spot, running over him with the rear wheel of his truck.

With tears streaming down my face, I cradled Spot in my arms and ran to the house, calling to my mother and brother for help. As we washed the blood from his head, it soon became apparent that Spot’s disobedient act had dealt him a fatal blow. As the burial of Spot was completed and the tears dried, my mother then taught me one of the great lessons of life as she explained the principle of obedience and its application in my life. She made clear that seemingly small acts of disobedience can result in longer-term consequences of unhappiness, regrets, and even fatal results. --Staheli

The lesson here is clearly not that the neighbor who willfully and intentionally murdered his dog was at fault.  Nor was Staheli himself at fault though he was responsible for the dog's welfare.  It was dog's fault for being disobedient.  And if we're not obedient we might be murdered too.

Here's one example of a nonsensical lesson from a Young Women's lesson manual (manual 3, Chapter 25):

Explain that one of the primary aims of science is to discover additional laws. When scientists discover these higher laws and obey them, marvelous things can happen. The successful landing of men on the moon is an example of the importance of obedience. Men spent years concentrating on discovering and obeying the natural laws that governed gravity, jet propulsion, and other things. Their obedience resulted in the successful landing of a man on the moon. --YW Lesson Manual

The laws of physics are not something you can choose to obey or not.  The entire paragraph makes no sense in the context of trying to teach that obedience is a virtue.

And finally, the lesson that I find truly concerning and really highlights that in LDS theology there is no greater act than obedience.  In 1980, Ezra Taft Benson gave a talk, "The Fourteen Fundamentals in Following the Prophet" in which he quotes Marion G. Romney from the October 1960 General Conference:

I remember years ago when I was a bishop I had President Heber J. Grant talk to our ward. After the meeting I drove him home … Standing by me, he put his arm over my shoulder and said: "My boy, you always keep your eye on the President of the Church and if he ever tells you to do anything, and it is wrong, and you do it, the Lord will bless you for it." Then with a twinkle in his eye, he said, "But you don't need to worry. The Lord will never let his mouthpiece lead the people astray." --Marion Romney

There are two fundamental problems in this quote.  One is that the prophet is infallible.  If "the Lord will never let his mouthpiece lead the people astray" then the prophet must be infallible as far as leading the Church is concerned.  Which contradicts the "leaders are not infallible" explanation that is used whenever doctrine has to be revised.

But the truly concerning part of that quote is that we're told to obey the prophet even when he tells us to do things that are wrong.  That our own sense of morality and our own exercise of agency is so irrelevant that if the prophet tells us to murder our neighbors we need to be obedient and not question else "[we] become [our] own prophet. [We] decide what the Lord wants and what the Lord doesn’t want" (same source, N. Eldon Tanner).  And for some reason a God that granted us agency will find this not only acceptable but laudable.

I find that Galileo had a much more appropriate view on the matter:

I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forego their use. --Galileo

Obedience has been used to drive people to great evil throughout history.  I don't want people learning obedience.  I don't want my children learning obedience.  Obedience is too easy to corrupt and can only be unblemished under the direction of a benevolent and infallible dictatorship.  Since the LDS Church readily admits that no mortal is infallible (despite teaching that the prophet cannot lead the Church astray) we should really be wary of the constant demand for obedience.

Far better to practice morality rather than obedience.  Morality is to determine for oneself what differentiates right from wrong; to develop your own, internal standard of behavior.  Morality is harder than obedience.  You have to study, ponder, wrestle with, and defend your actions.  You don't get to explain your actions with, "I was just following orders."

I will not teach my children obedience.  I will teach them morality.  And I do so with the recognition that morality is harder to teach than obedience.  Teaching obedience can be done with nothing more than fear.  Teaching morality requires teaching awareness, compassion, reasoning, justice, mercy, introspection, empathy, and self-confidence.  I will feel a failure as a parent if my children ever defend their actions by saying, "I was just doing what I was told."

LDS theology is that our purpose on Earth is to exercise our agency and learn to discern right from wrong.  Supposing that is accurate I have a hard time believing that when we die and stand to be judged that the correct answer to "Why did you act that way?" will be "Because you said so."

Heather's First Day of TK

Today was Heather's first day of public school: Transitional Kindergarten.  TK was created when they moved the enrollment cutoff from Dec 31 to Sep 1.  It's billed as helping the kids prepare, but it's only for the kids born during Sep-Dec.  Which makes no sense since those kids will now be the oldest in their classes.  The only logical explanation I can come up with is that it only exists to appease the families that weren't planning on paying for another year of daycare.  Which, to me, means it should have only existed for a couple of years while the school system transitioned.  But it's here to stay even though it makes no sense.

Anyway, Heather falls in that range so she's enrolled.  5 hours every day.

She had a blast.  So hopefully that continues.

In the morning, ready to walk to school:

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I held my off-camera flash arms-length to my left which filled in nicely I think.

Coming out when school was over:


And Corinne coped by perching herself on the window sill, with a frog (that's the coffee table under her feet):


Heather's Soccer

Heather's been doing a "pre-soccer" class on Saturday mornings.  I've tried a few times to get some pictures, but apparently I'm terrible at sports photography.  These represent my third attempt and they're still not particularly good, but they'll have to do.

I don't really have much more to say, so enjoy!

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The Role of Police

I've been meaning to write this blog post for a while, but haven't been able to figure out how to state it correctly.  But it needs to be written and I'll try my best.

The role of police should be to keep people alive so the justice system can attempt to do its job.

Our country has had too many examples in recent history of police officers escalating situations until some needless tragedy occurs.  But there are examples of "doing it right" as well.

One example, in particular, of the wrong outcome comes to mind: the LAPD manhunt, standoff, and killing of Christopher Dorner in 2013.  Dorner was a suspect in the murder of several people including members of law enforcement.  Police eventually surrounded Dorner in a rural cabin.  Police used equipment to knock down most of the walls of the cabin and then launched pyrotechnic tear gas canisters into the cabin setting it on fire after which Dorner shot himself in the head.  The police defend the use of the pyrotechnic tear gas canisters as "their only option."

Dorner now will not stand trial and it appears that officers were acting out of anger rather than a duty to uphold the law.  It's hard to believe that maintaining a safety cordon and "waiting him out" was somehow an impossible option.

On the other hand, the Boston Police provided a better example of carrying out their duties in a more professionally detached manner during the manhunt and capture of the Boston Marathon bombers also in 2013.  Once Tsarnaev was located hiding in a boat, police surrounded the area.  One officer, unfortunately, did open fire, but was immediately ordered to stop.  Tsarnaev was then taken in to custody and brought to a hospital for medical treatment.  He will stand trial for his crimes.

Even more recently we can find an exemplary example in how law enforcement handled the occupation of the Malheur Wildlife Refuge in 2016.  Rather than "storm the castle" or light it on fire, law enforcement simply waited until their options improved.  They were able to arrest all but one suspect.  The one was killed by arresting officers after, reportedly, reaching for a firearm.  That means 9 suspects will stand trial and the justice system will attempt to fulfill its purpose.

Police need to be trained in de-escalation techniques.  They need to be trained in working to keep everyone alive--not just themselves.  They need to be trained in alternative problem-resolution techniques to force.  They need to be trained to be patient.  Yes, this will likely result in an increased level of risk to officers.  I recognize that.  That's the job I'm asking them to do.  Training, support, equipment, and compensation should reflect that risk.

We need society to have trust in our law enforcement personnel. We need law enforcement personnel to behave in a manner that retains that trust.

When that trust breaks down violators on both sides will use it as an excuse to escalate their own actions.  And more people will be denied the right to see their families again.